Ferber day 4

4 steps forward 7 steps back.

Last night didn't go as well as the night before. Perhaps because I didn't stimulate her enough during the day. We were inside all day avoiding the 100+ heat. We usually go to the park or go on a walk but it didn't start cooling down until after 8:30 so we had no luck.

Stella started getting whiny and rubbing her eyes around 8:50 so I thought it was time to get her to bed. Maybe I was wrong because she didn't end up falling asleep until 10:15. Lots of soothing and lots of screaming. After getting Stella nice and calm by patting her back it feels like my heart is shattering when she starts to scream as I leave the room. I don't think there is a worse feeling. I hate it. I, again, started balling because I felt like a horrible mother. This process is so hard.

Stella slept from10:15-7:30. And after I nursed her she dozed off again. The book says to not let her do that but the hell with it. I tired naps in her crib yesterday and that was 100% unsuccessful. If they are only supposed to cry a total of 30 min before you take them out for naps then how are you supposed to stop them from napping on you. I wish I had this doctor to question. Ugh.

Praying tomorrow gets better.